domingo, 28 de febrero de 2021

Last night - Anoche

 Last night the air was perfectly calm and perfectly warm, and pleasant. I sat in a restaurant, Los Mineros, "The Miners"—this was a mining town in its heyday... remnants of the orientalist arches from the tail end of the romantic period, presaging the love of curves of Art Nouveau are a recurrent motif of its ruins. I was out on the town, ordering food for maybe the first time in 6 months, during this historic worldwide pandemic of the 21st century.  There was a lot of traffic noise, but the little table I was sitting at felt just so, just so, pleasant, a little refuge in a thick-walled earthen and plaster building, as I looked out across the highly trafficked cobblestone street to the new restaurant-bar across the way—with its huge millstone in the entryway and its modern led retro light bulbs hanging from the ceiling of the bar, visible through the high glass windows above the doorway; and above that the wooden painted sign "Ruta 1576," a reference to the Camino Real, the Spanish occupation, the gold, silver and mineral trade for the crown)... The light refracted so softly, a warm tungsten-like glow softening more through the windows and my slight myopia creating a romantic dream-like blur—such a lovely moment filled with the endless possibility of light and air.  I, sitting again, as I have so many many times in these 7 years, alone... feeling so soft and vulnerable, tears welling up and streaming down my face, feeling all the loveliness, and the absence of the life companionship of my mother, Marianne... Gratitude and sadness, something akin to nostalgia, mixing with the warm evening air... I lowered my sunglasses to keep the tears private, on the eve of her birthday... Ahhh... people coming and going, ordering out... the couple who just walked in leaning in together to look at the menu and decide on which dessert to take out, masked against the world, leaning closer...  As I walked home in the fading light things almost seemed right with the world... entering my portón on the main street, still regretting the traffic noise a bit, my garden unfolded before me in shadow, the stairs leading upwards, the light refracting from indoors of the colored limewashed walls intimating warmth, embrace, beauty... And for a moment in timeless balance: light reflection glass wood tree hanging low shadow color nighttime welcoming...


—Lorena Wolfman


Anoche el aire estaba perfectamente tranquilo, perfectamente cálido y agradable. Me senté en un restaurante, Los Mineros, pues Pozos era un pueblo minero en su apogeo... los restos de arcos orientalistas del final del período romántico, y presagiando el amor por las curvas del Art Nouveau, son un recurrente motivo de sus ruinas. Estaba fuera de la casa ordenando comida quizás por primera vez en 6 meses durante esta histórica pandemia mundial del siglo XXI. Había mucho ruido de tráfico, pero la mesita en la que estaba sentada se sentía tan, tan, tan agradable, un pequeño refugio en un edificio de barro de paredes gruesas aplanadas de estucco, mientras miraba a través de la calle empedrada y de mucho tráfico hacia el nuevo restaurante-bar al otro lado, con su enorme piedra de molino en la entrada y sus modernas bombillas LED estilo retro colgando del techo del bar, visibles a través de las altas ventanas de vidrio sobre la entrada, y arriba el letrero de madera pintado "Ruta 1576", una referencia al Camino Real, la colonización española, el comercio de oro, plata y minerales de la Corona)... La luz se refractaba tan suavemente, un cálido resplandor parecido al tungsteno suavizándose más a través de las ventanas y mi leve miopía creando un romántico desenfoque de ensueño, un momento tan encantador lleno de la infinita posibilidad de luz y aire. Yo, sentada de nuevo, como tantas veces en estos 7 años, sola... sintiéndome tan sensible y vulnerable, lágrimas brotando y cayéndose, yo sintiendo con todo y el encanto, y junto a ello la ausencia de la compañía de vida de mi madre, Marianne... Gratitud y tristeza, algo parecido a la nostalgia, se mezclaba con el aire cálido de la tarde... Me bajé los lentes de sol para mantener las lágrimas privadas, en esta, la víspera de su cumpleaños ... Ahhh— ... gente se iba y venía, ordenando para llevar... la pareja que acababa de entrar se inclinaba uno hacía el otro para mirar el menú y decidir qué postre llevar, enmascarados contra el mundo, inclinándose cada vez más uno hacía el otro... Mientras caminaba a casa en la luz del atardecer que se desvanecía, las cosas casi parecían estar bien con el mundo... entrando por el portón en la calle principal, todavía lamentándome un poco del ruido del tráfico, mi jardín se desplegaba ante mí en la semi-oscuridad, las escaleras se subían hacia el segundo plano del jardín, la luz refractándose del interior de la casa en las paredes pintadas a la cal insinuaban calidez, abrazo, belleza... Y por un momento en equilibrio atemporal:  madera vidrio reflexión de luz árbol colgando hacía abajo sombra color noche bienvenida...


—Lorena Wolfman


domingo, 21 de febrero de 2021

Corazón Infinito :: Infinite Heart —An improvisation—

From an expressive dance improvisation on Feb. 2,  part of the work I develop in the context of the Expressive Arts Lab that, in a sense, I founded this year, using the beautiful dance studio at Escuela Modelo in Pozos, GTO.  In reality, the activity really began and was dreamed of last year, but having such a beautiful space adds a whole new dimension. It is a natural evolution out of previous activities in the community, my personal practice... It is to be shared in the context of international, for now virtual (online), somatic and expressive arts communities and students of this work. And online workshops are planned.

De una danza al estilo improvisación expresiva el 2 de febrero, parte de la actividad que llevo acabo en el Expressive Arts Lab que empecé este año utilizando la bella sala de danza en Escuela Modelo, Pozos, GTO.  En realidad la actividad fue soñada y empezó el año pasado pero le da nueva dimensión estar en un espacio tan lindo.  Representa una evolución natural de actividades previas en la comunidad y mi práctica personal. Será compartido en el contexto de comunidades de practicas somáticas y artes expresivas internacional y virtual (en línea) por ahora y con estudiantes de estas prácticas e investigación. Y están en los planes dar talleres en línea.




sábado, 20 de febrero de 2021

infinite mystery


the heart holds a secret at its center

the secret of folding to unfold

the secret of entering to expand

an intrinsic mystery underlies 

the pulsing inward to emerge

it is mystery that holds the heart's rhythm

it is mystery that guides it home


—Lorena Wolfman






jueves, 18 de febrero de 2021

entering (atmosphere of love)

with reverence

entering the inner sanctum 

the center of embrace

the place where sparks are born

where the blood flows

on its way to everywhere

this luminous ganglion body pulses

entering the forge of knowing

drawing from all places

in every direction

entering... entering...

drawing from the mystery...

folding inward to the center

entering... entering...

on the way to everywhere

from the center


—Lorena Wolfman


light


light 

carrier

arms of the sun

messenger

of inner implosions

its pathways into my garden are invisible

yet its presence makes 

each pale budding leaf 

each extravagant flower 

the turgid flesh of the nopal

the eroding dirt of an opaque adobe wall

studded with white pieces of caliche

each thing visible from within 

by its color signature

the frequencies it releases

and frequencies each thing keeps for itself

shimmering light everywhere

gives away earth's inner secrets

while she contains each moment

an even deeper mystery

the eyes cannot apprehend


—Lorena Wolfman

domingo, 14 de febrero de 2021

I am here


I have fallen

into the transcendence

of going no place

gazing out the open window

fuchsia colored bougainvillea

adobe wall

light reflecting heavenwards

from the silver underside of tepozán leaves


rising brightly light 

revealing all things in the garden

thick round nopal pencas

lacey pale green mezquite branches

while I tread the earth barefoot

each step registering the contour of the ground

each step planted in place


I am transfixed 

overtaken pierced beyond time and place

I have become sister to all women who have stopped

only to enter everything

some were thought saints

some were thought insane

yet in fact they shed all names

as they entered the light


I hold my heart firmly

rocking side to side

weight transferred from one foot to the other

ground entering the soles of my feet

stillness

and rocking

stillness

and rocking

some part of me that was never rocked

rocking

dissolving into the living stillness


while on the adobe wall

an eternity of blooms

each petal a galaxy

seen only by space itself


I have not seen so simply 

so deeply since I was a child

there's no place to go

the layers to arrive

have fallen away

I am here

in a place so intimate

so much larger than myself


—Lorena

martes, 9 de febrero de 2021

Volviendo al estudio...


























This is a prayer in 5 parts

 











I wonder what death is

I 

wonder

what 

death 

is

surrender

surrender

yield

yield

yield

yield

y i e l d

y i e l d 

yield

yield

yield

so that the soul can rise

yield

so that heels can rise

yield

yield

so that the heels can rise

yield

yield

yield

so that the whole body can rise

yield

yield

yield

yield

so that you can feel the earth

yield

yield

so that your legs can rise

yield

yield

so that you can rest on the earth


I wonder what death is

This is a prayer 

This is a prayer 

This is a prayer

This is a prayer

This is prayer

This is a prayer

so the soul can rise

This is a prayer in 5 parts

This is a prayer so the soul can rise

This is prayer 

I wonder what death is

I wonder what death is

This is a prayer in 5 parts

Each part has a story

Each part tells a story

Each part is a prayer in itself

This is a story

This is a poem

This is a prayer in 5 parts

yield

yield

yield

This is prayer in 5 parts

yield

yield

so the soul can rise

This is a tender prayer

so the soul can rise

Just so

Just so

It’s just so

It’s just so

Just so


It’s just so